I don’t see the road ahead of me…

Below is Thomas Merton’s infamous prayer . It speaks of surrendering to God, in every way. I am so moved every time I read these words. I am inspired  both by Merton’s honesty and humility (and how much I connect with his words), as well as the graciousness of God that Merton points to. As a worker in God’s vineyard, I think this prayer is good to keep close at hand. This prayer expresses the peace that comes from knowing and trusting in God’s presence in a life with so many unknowns and irresolvable conflicts.

This prayer acknowledges that, despite our human tendency to think we know what life is about and how we can manage it, we really have no clue.

“The mind of man plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps.” (Prov 16:9)

picture @googleimages

picture @googleimages

My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going.   

I do not see the road ahead of me.

I cannot know for certain where it will end.

Nor do I really know myself,

and the fact that I think that I am following your will

does not mean that I am actually doing so.

But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.

And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing.

I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.

And I know that if I do this, you will lead me by the right road

though I may know nothing about it.

Therefore will I trust you always

though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.

I will not fear, for you are ever with me,

and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

From ‘Through the year with Thomas Merton’.



Are YOU brave enough?




Something to think about.

Resting assured.

Image @thisnext.com

God’s call is constant. I feel the tugging to be with Him throughout the day, and I feel (or should I say seek?) His hand in whatever I’m thinking and doing. My decisions are coloured with the words from the acronym found on Christian bracelets which read: WWJD ‘What Would Jesus Do?’ Of late I feel peace and a sense of just knowing that my God is with me. I have received this peace through the Graces bestowed on me in the Sacrament of Reconciliation and the most Holy Eucharist. This I know.

His call has sent me in search of Him in what I read and the company I choose to keep. My interests revolve around His work, and God willing, I plan to put forward a fervent hand  in the Vineyard when I retire, giving my time to charity and volunteer work in whichever way He desires, so that someone else who is searching for Him may reach out and take His hand. As for the present, my vocation as an educator fills me up to the brim with opportunities to share the Good News in different ways each and every day. My responsibilities as spouse and parent have I come to see as the workshop where   Christ is forming me, and where my ‘tests’ are greatest and sometimes most painful. I thank God for his steadfast patience and faith in me. I know I have much yet to learn, internalize and live. I trust in Him.

I went through a phase of indecision with regard to prayer, thinking that only ‘my own’ prayers were true, because they were an expression of my heart and no-one else’s.  This has taken me along a long path of self-discovery and lots of delving.  My excavations revealed a wealth of beautiful heartfelt prayer written by the saints and mystics of the Church, which say exactly what I want to express and more. My love for Jesus has grown and my heart and mind has been opened to the love of the Lord through these most beautiful prayers.

At a meeting recently , was I introduced to the following all-encompassing Easter-tide prayer:

Roll back the stone doors,

The doors of fear,

Fear of difficulties and problems.

– the doors of relying on our own strength;

-the doors of human respect.

And what we call our common sense.

-the doors of our sinfulness

and human frailty

-the doors of mediocrity and laziness.

We pray this Easter for Faith, Lord;

Not for faith in your raising to life

But for faith in your raising us to life with you.

The Good News

Of your resurrection from the dead

Will never spread to the whole world

Without that of our new life in you.

We pray for new vitality

For your Church,

For each one of us.

Call us out of the tomb,

And help us to unbind one another.

(Cardinal Gabriel Zubeir Wako) 

Image at Vatican news.


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